Living with the pain…

A while ago I posted a little ditty “Tired of living like I’m dying”. So this is just an update on my progress such far…

Life has changed….. I have changed….

I am officially 1 week off ALL my medications!!! Yes, and believe it or not, I’m still kicking.  A month or so ago I went off narcotic pain killers… the WORST week of my life. In all honesty if it weren’t for my husband and kids, I wouldn’t be here. As hard as it is to say… Yes I would have killed myself. The pain… the excruciating pain… not only body pain but mind pain, I can’t even explain what I was feeling. Though as you can see… still here, still kicking. I’m dealing with the pain.

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That brings us to today… no anti depressants or anxiety meds… no pump inhibitors, no muscle relaxes, no arthritis meds…… Nothing. I went from 16+ pills a day to none.

Guess what? I’m living with the pain!

It’s not easy. I think about the pain meds every day. I miss that relief. I hate the pain. But I will NEVER do that to my mind or body again.

I’ve been doing a lot of research on healing my body naturally. I can’t erase the arthritis, the osteoporosis, von willebrants, the immune response, celiac, thyroid and other ailments… but I can improve them.

All I can do is continue the fight…. this time I’m winning.

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Daphne
    Apr 17, 2015 @ 20:07:02

    I have an *incredibly* strong innate talent for rambling on and on. Once I start I tend to have difficulty stopping.

    This time though, the words to describe the emotions your writing has evoked within me seem to float just outside my reach.

    So instead of rambling on for fourteen years in hopes I’ll eventually grasp those elusive words I’ll just share two tiny things:

    1. Quite simply sweetie, you amaze me and I am so very proud of you.

    2. I will continue sending strength, light, and healing energy so that it might cocoon your body and spirit in a comforting warmth that will ease your pain and soften your struggles throughout this journey.

    3. I love you beautiful. Time after Time. 🙂

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  2. Daphne
    Apr 17, 2015 @ 20:10:41

    Yeah, ok, so that was actually three things. Whatever. Lmao

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