Living with the pain…

A while ago I posted a little ditty “Tired of living like I’m dying”. So this is just an update on my progress such far…

Life has changed….. I have changed….

I am officially 1 week off ALL my medications!!! Yes, and believe it or not, I’m still kicking.  A month or so ago I went off narcotic pain killers… the WORST week of my life. In all honesty if it weren’t for my husband and kids, I wouldn’t be here. As hard as it is to say… Yes I would have killed myself. The pain… the excruciating pain… not only body pain but mind pain, I can’t even explain what I was feeling. Though as you can see… still here, still kicking. I’m dealing with the pain.

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That brings us to today… no anti depressants or anxiety meds… no pump inhibitors, no muscle relaxes, no arthritis meds…… Nothing. I went from 16+ pills a day to none.

Guess what? I’m living with the pain!

It’s not easy. I think about the pain meds every day. I miss that relief. I hate the pain. But I will NEVER do that to my mind or body again.

I’ve been doing a lot of research on healing my body naturally. I can’t erase the arthritis, the osteoporosis, von willebrants, the immune response, celiac, thyroid and other ailments… but I can improve them.

All I can do is continue the fight…. this time I’m winning.

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